The following story evolved from what at first was to become "Adventures of Boygirl." I published this on several adult websites a few years ago, after a particularly nasty breakup with my latest girlfriend. In this revision, I edited much of the previous version and added several new sections. Boygirl needed to bring down the Moon. He needed to go beyond the limitations of the previous boygirl saga. I think you will agree that he pushes the limits.

Readers may recall that at the conclusion of the email thread in Adventures of Boygirl (2), I promised to seek inner guidance so that I might be turned into a sissy on a 24/7 basis. In "Adventures of Boygirl (3)," I am required to use an auto hypnotic induction technique called the "Boygirl Induction." This concludes the series.

Feedback is always appreciated. The story's participants are all adults, not children, and it is intended only for an emotionally stable and discriminating audience over 18 years of age.

Adventures of Boygirl

by Boygirl

Copyright ©2007 by Boygirl

Part IV

(1) Introduction to the "Boygirl Induction"

 

Readers may recall that at the conclusion of the email thread above, I promised to seek Monique's inner guidance so that I might be turned into a sissy on a 24/7 basis in real life. In a nutshell, I was given a closing suggestion by the previous correspondent that I get in touch with my 'inner feminine.'

As it turned out, I didn't need to travel to Tibet to get in touch with that side of myself. I should have seen it coming. Most women might have showed certain discretion in publicizing the fact that her latest conquest was a boygirl, but my correspondent delighted in publicizing it. Before leaving the area, she gave my e-mail address and phone number to several of her girlfriends. Suffice it to say that they must have talked together, because they implemented a similar routine.

They required me to systematically use an auto hypnotic induction technique that one of them had written for me, and I am sharing it with you.

This, then, is the "boygirl induction." This exercise isn't for the feint of heart or the emotionally unstable. If you're not a true sissy at heart, this induction will lead to some very strange places. This writer disclaims responsibility should anyone choose to experiment on his/her own. If anyone chooses to walk this path, supervision is highly recommended. You need to be over 18, for one. You need to follow the rules. You also need to be emotionally and mentally stable. If you qualify on all these points and are also an intrepid adventurer, bon voyage.

The reader should know that one of the principle rules throughout this induction is that boycunts (i.e., fully sexualized boygirls) in the making should learn to cum like females, not males. For this reason, ejaculation is prohibited except by permission. That's rule number 1.

There is another, more subtle reason for the rule regarding ejaculation. This rule is consistent with many spiritual practices where male ejaculation is prohibited, but female orgasm is allowed. Although the sublimated energy associated with Eastern practices often leads to celibacy, this highly eroticized induction may lead in quite a different direction.

If followed carefully, it will almost certainly deepen your sense of sissyhood. It certainly did for me. As a 'Priestess of Cybele,' one should endeavor to 'contain' the psychic energy that this practice raises and use it in the service of self-transformation, rather than dissipating it in pleasurable but pointless jack-off sessions.

(Note: By definition, jacking-off leads to ejaculation, whereas jilling-off does NOT. Cybele encouraged her priestesses to engage in daily jill-off sessions, but always without male ejaculation.) It is not necessary to elaborate any further here. For now, all the reader needs to know is that this method is highly effective but only to the extent that these two rules are followed: Jill-off frequently, and remember, unless you're explicitly allowed, you can't cum as a boy but you may cum as a girl.

 

(2) The Boygirl Induction

 

So here is the patter.

First of all, sit in a comfortable chair. This isn't an exercise to do in full lotus. The body is not something to be folded into pretzels. It is something to dance with, a partner with whom to make love.

It is suggested that you wear boyshorts while working the first part of this induction. They show off your ass. They frame your sex. Feel it.

So just sit in a chair and spend a few moments recollecting the circumstances that brought you to this juncture. Perhaps you've been reading this story awhile. You may have been unexpectedly turned on. Perhaps you're a bit intrigued by the title of this section. You want to see what's next. Become aware of your posture. Become mindful of the feel of the fabric against your groin. Feel your nipples. Stand softly erect.

Look at yourself. You may be wearing boyshorts, but you are not trying to pass for a woman. You are a male. At least genetically. There are certain connotations to a man's wearing lingerie, however.

There are many types of meditation. Some focus on the breath. Some on a sound. Someone a picture. What I'm suggesting is that you focus on none of these things but instead on your experience as a boygirl.

Breath in and let your tummy expand. Breath out, and let it fall back in. Find a good rhythm for the breath. You really*are* a pussyboy. You may imagine yourself to be impaled on the inhale, and further fu*ked on the exhale. Wrap your legs around that rhythm and let it take you for a ride. The idea is to associate the autonomic act of breathing with increasing degrees of sissification.

Our job isn't to transcend our erotic nature but to integrate it as we move further along.

Engage in this rhythmic breathing for five to ten minutes.

If it's difficult for you to find anything sexy about sitting in a chair, it is possible that you are not properly attired. Now, start to tease your nipples with your fingertips until you need to spread your legs. When you do that, admit that here you are, sitting in a chair in boyshorts or panties, openly playing with your tits.

This is very pleasurable indeed. You may even want to touch your cock. Don't. You may, however, continue to play with your tits. Notice when you do that, erotic feelings seem to converge not mainly in your groin, but at the base of your spine. It's true, isn't it, that you really want to get fucked?

Do this later exercise (teasing yourself) while sitting on the chair for 10 minutes a day for 2 weeks. The idea is to get you used to feeling like a sissy, and you will begin to enjoy it so much that the girl in you opens up a door to the rabbit hole within.

Welcome to Wonderland, Alice.

After you have done the above meditation on the chair for 10 days, you may lie down on the bed. This time, you should wear panties.

Feel your body for about 5 minutes, noting where your physical tensions might be. Acknowledge the tensions and formulate an intention to let them release. You are giving your body permission to relax.

Take the time to insert a well lubricated butt plug, possibly before you start breathing. The butt plug is essential. Breath rhythmically with it in place for another few minutes.

Rhythm is everywhere. Above and below. It attracts all those things we need, in a perfect figure 8. Whoosh, whoosh. When you breathe at first, you may need to nudge yourself in the right direction. With each exhalation, you wrap your legs around a dream.

Now lightly touch your feminine nipples once again and tease them for 10 full minutes. Don't touch yourself anywhere else. If your tits are really that sensitive, you might want to spread your legs a bit. Marvel how your sensations converge in your ass. If you have an appropriate pillow, wrap your legs around it. If you do that, be sure to elevate your butt a bit by placing another pillow under you. Even though you have a cock, you will know it is a girlcock. It is a boy clit that can always sweeten your partner, but it can never really satisfy her. She needs something hard and salty. You have something soft and sweet.

One of your first jobs is to realize that serving as a sissy can be fun for both partners. Continue playing with your nipples for another fifteen minutes. Your job, as it has always been, is to remind yourself to be the boygirl that you are, connecting people with their paths. Your job has always been to arouse female desire for the male. Recall your amours. Imagine preparing them, you might say, for the real thing. Imagine them teasing you about it afterwards.

After a period of this kind of play, take a 5 minute break. Give the energy that you raised back to the source from which all energy comes. Ask for more energy. Bathe in it. Refresh yourself in it.

Go through 15 more minutes of nipple play.

It is very important that you don't touch your penis. Your cock, however large or hard it may be, is irrelevant. It is mostly conditioning that makes you associate sexual release with male ejaculation. In your case, the only real orgasm is female. It may take a little time for you to experience that, however, because of your biology and learnings as a male. It is in your destiny as a sissy, however, to cum another way.

In the second 15 minutes of self-pleasuring (45 minutes in all, counting preparation), follow the thread of your excitement. Amplify it in your imagination. Get into any "scenes" it may call up. If there are no fantasies, that's ok too. Get into your feelings.

Again, you must not touch your cock. It's just an elongated clit.

You may refer to it as your girlcock. Sometimes, it will even become very soft when you're most excited. There is no performance standard in the dick department to live up to anymore. Not for girl boys like you.

After the second session, stop. Each week, you can add another 15 minute period to the mix, but don't be impatient. You can take breaks. You do not need to do these sessions all at once. Find your sweet spot, your own private groove.

Do these things every day, but no more than two hours a day. After you are done, take the butt plug out. Clean yourself and do not touch your penis. Ask that your life be infused with more "sissified energy" and then get dressed. In all this time, you have not yet cum as a man. If you want more, you need to earn it. That takes time, patience and discipline.

You are learning to channel your sexual excitement. Even if you have inadvertently ejaculated, you will have very much pleasured your inner pussy. In time, she may show you a whole new way.

Never mind what any of this means. You may be able to follow this patter on a subconscious level if you record parts of it beforehand. Imagine yourself dictating those special parts into a voice recorder. Yes, do create a recording. Use appropriate fillers for music while trancing out in sissy-space.

And keep a diary or log as well. It is essential that you write down your impressions after each session. Perhaps you allowed certain things to percolate and they bubbled to the surface in your fantasies. It's important to write them down. It will help move things along.

Perhaps while you are here, you will flash on a particular passage in a previous part of these "Adventures." Perhaps something turned you on. It's ok to remember. You will find that it becomes easier and easier to achieve this highly sissified state as long as you spend a few minutes every day affirming your true nature.

It's easy to allow yourself to go into a light trance as long as you're with people who encourage you to be what you are. Or with no people at all. With that feeling of safety in mind, doors begin to open. The closet isn't only a place. It's not just a state of mind. It is important to present yourself to the world as a sissy without attracting adverse attention People will pick up on it anyway. Did your significant partners never suspect? In your imagination, you will feel an increasing sense of acceptance, a rebalancing of energies.

You know yourself to be a boycunt at every level. Walls are coming down. Walls you once used to hide yourself from others.

Part of your gift is to present with your own special sissylight. You can't just assume that the world is ready for that, however. Sometimes, it's appropriate to hide it from those people who haven't the sense of humor and the tolerance to accept it. Nearly always, however, it's ok to let your lovelight shine. You may not want to be recognized as a sissy—es[pecially by your girlfriend or your wife—but it still kind of excites you, doesn't it?

It is important that you feel protected from the judgments of others. There is no need to be afraid. It's easy to fall into trance as long as you give yourself permission, which you can easily do if this is approached in a disciplined way. Right now, you feel totally secure. It's ok in your fantasies to let your girlfriend or wife fuck other men. Perhaps you even want to encourage them to do that.

During these few minutes of trance-formation every day, you will be able to relax into the desires you secretly harbor. You can run but you can't hide. Be real. Own your sexuality. Be the boygirl that you are.

When you are winding up the exercise each day, tell yourself that you are gently coming out of trance and that you are entering the waking world.

You may not touch yourself any longer except as described below.

As you start the count of 5, you may imagine a current or former partner kissing your tits and your legs will want to spread wider. Perhaps they teasingly call you by a naughty name. Savor the awareness. You have been thoroughly put in your place. Spread your legs even more. All fire and water, flowing into one. You are a jewel. Relax.

At 4, you will remember that your girlcock is just a little clit. Feel it. You may touch it lightly but only if you make note of what it really is. important thing to remember that you should not slip into that nasty male habit of ejaculating. That's for men. You're something else.

At 3 and 2, as you enter everyday awareness, you will feel a deepening need to cum as a pussy, not as a boy. Your clit really wants to be soft. You may imagine a hard phallic presence inside you. Give yourself over to the need to be fucked.

Since you are a boygirl, you should remember that while your now-flaccid clit can always get a woman's juices going, it can never really satisfy. It's but a prelude to something else that she has needed ever since she hooked up with you. You are her own personal pussyboy. You can't begin to imagine how much she needs a man. .

Your nipples are hard, but you are soft. Spread your legs again, while taking careful note that you are gradually becoming more conscious, present and available. Oh, so available. Spread your legs a little wider. Like that.

At 1, you are grounded. With closed eyes, touch your panties (or boyshorts). You may also steal a peek at them. They frame your sex perfectly. As you emerge from trance, you will gather in all the energy that you have stirred up and, in an intentional act, give it to your girlified self. Directions for doing this will follow shortly.

Know that in the not too distant future, as you continue to practice this induction, you may find the erotic satisfaction that you've craved. If you follow the rules, you will not need to go looking for kink. You will bring it to you. It is essential, however, to do things right.

You are growing a real live sissyboy inside you. You can't just dissipate your energy in senseless acts of ejaculation. Once a week, but not more than that, you are allowed to ejaculate as a "man." (See below for patter on this.)

That term is in quotes because you are not very male, wearing panties and all. Allowing you to cum as a "man" is not too much to ask for, however, as long as it doesn't detract from this work and is limited. Yes, this is work. You are, after all, an unfinished boygirl. Sissies need to be done right. With each tweak of your nipples, your cock will become less and less rigid, and eventually you will not even want to refer to it as a cock, but a clit. You may feel a need for what can only be described as a clitoral orgasm. It is important that as you play with yourself that you do not undo the good work you have been doing.

It is always important to play with your nipples, thorough experiencing your cravings as a pussy. It is important that you conserve your girlish energy and not spend it by ejaculating as a "man." Your sexual energy is to be symbolically placed at the close of each induction, through the power of your intention and imagination, in a specifically "constructed" container.

The "container" is sealed except for an imaginary intake valve that was built for the purpose of taking in energy at the end of each exercise, while letting nothing out unless for a special purpose. You are to send your sexual energy into this imaginary vessel at the close of each induction, leaving just enough for you to keep on keeping on, and then some.

Let things gestate in their own time. Those same energies, if properly acknowledged, shall eventually give birth to a thoroughly feminized sissy. When that happens, you will no longer want to ejaculate as a "man."

If, in the interim, you inadvertently do cum as a "boy," you need only be reminded of the moniker of that kinky tee shirt, as described in the first part of this narrative. You may be a pansy fairy too.

Remind yourself lovingly that you are what you are. Observe how your girlcock feels. Softer and softer, yes? So much for being a "man." Compare that faux-male feeling in your clit with the deepening excitement that you're feeling through this induction.

Play with your nipples one last time.

Now tell me true, sweetheart: Which do you prefer?

  

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